Eli went to Children’s Hospital for his 4-year-old clubfoot check up. We couldn’t be more proud that he officially reached the end of wearing his Mitchell boots and bar. His doctor checked his dorsiflexion and although he has more flexibility on his left foot (non-clubfoot) than his right clubfoot, the doctor was very happy with Eli’s progress.
I will admit, I was nervous leading up to this appointment since I knew we were approaching Eli being boot and bar free. Being nervous?! I know, it sounds crazy. I would’ve thought I would have been over the moon excited but as a clubfoot mama, there is always a worry about our child’s progress and the dreaded possibility of relapse.
Questions and emotions swirled through my mind as I drove Eli to his appointment. Reflecting back on our journey brought me to tears — remembering the weekly appointments for casts, remembering the long nights, remembering the worry about his comfort, remembering the guilt.
Words from Lauren Daigle’s song Trust in You rang through me:
When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!
You are my strength and comfort
You are my steady hand
You are my firm foundation; the rock on which I stand
During those tough times, there were uncertainties about the future and many, many questions. Sometimes the only certainty we had was that we were certain we were doing everything we could as clubfoot parents to support Eli’s success.
So here we are, 4 years later and transitioning to a period of no Mitchell boots and bar. Eli finally gets a chance to sleep with his little feet free which he definitely deserves! It was also reassuring that we go back to the doctor in 4 short months for another checkup. Of course, no doctor can promise the future. I asked our doctor with worry in my eyes about relapse and there are no guarantees. We have to trust that this is the treatment plan and that we will continue to take it one day at a time.
If you would have asked me what I was thinking when I knew my son would wear his boots for 4 years, I would have sighed and with a heavy heart told you how that seems like such a long time. But, now 4 years later, it doesn’t seem possible that it’s already been 4 years.
Of course, I’m speaking from a personal experience but the first days, weeks, months were the hardest. Once we hit 12-14 hour wear, our journey has been pretty smooth. We had a couple of hiccups along the way but overall, Eli has worn his boots every single night with little resistance.
Of course, we are very proud parents over here. I could just cheer and cheer for my little man shouting, “You did it!”
If you are traveling the clubfoot journey, I’d love to encourage you to stay strong and keep marching forward one day at a time. Your day to celebrate the success will come! Drop me a line in the comments below or connect with me through social media if you have any questions!